I’m giving real thought to suicide bc I can’t get treatment

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    I'm getting badly dehyrated every single day, and I can't do anything to break this endless cycle. It's such a simple and stupid thing, and I can't get treatment for it.

    I don't think this is really asking for any miracles or for the world here.

    The whole time I'm awake, it's wasted just recuperating and feeling sick and tired non stop. And then it just starts all over again the next day. This is all my days. I have no good days.

    I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired all the time. I have no life. I can't do anything. I can't think clearly, I have non stop migraines, I'm weak and nauseous, I keep getting thrush infections, my hair is falling out, I can't take care of myself. I can't take care of my dog. That's all I want to do in life, I'm not asking for anything else anymore.

    I have a condition that effects my hydration retention and I also have a sleep Disorder that makes me sleep for a long time without waking up. I'm not awake for a long time. I'm sleeping for even longer than I could be bc the dehydration is exhausting me. It's a vicious circle. The longer I sleep, the more dehyrated I get, the more dehyrated I get, the longer I sleep.

    Alarm clocks do not work. That's the first thing anyone would try. A drink by my bed doesn't do anything if I can't wake up to drink it. I do not have family who will do anything to help.

    I've been trying to get fluid therapy at home for while I sleep so that I can PREVENT getting dehydrated every fucking day, but I can't get a single doctor to do it.

    Everything is a dead end. And I don't have the energy money and time to keep repeating the same dead ends.

    It's always a dead end. They say they don't know how to do that. Or they don't have experience. Or question that I have dehyration bc I need to be a doctor to figure out that not being able to drink for 12 hours to sometimes days at a time and having text book symptoms is dehydration. Or I need to see another doctor who then tells me I need to see another doctor. Or I just need to drink when I wake up. Or use an alarm clock. (AFTER I tell them that these things don't work.) Or they've never heard of this before. Or they don't bother to follow up at all. Or imply that I'm lying or exaggerating, even with my flagged blood results, that they also disregard or excuse as ok bc "some people are different" or "it varies from time to time", even though mine are now constantly high every time I get a retest that they then say "we'll watch it".

    I think I'm getting organ damage from this. I think I'm dehydrating to death and I can't get any of them to do anything about it.

    This is specialists and primary care. This is at University and small practice. This is doctors who advertised themselves for the conditions I have.

    So every day is just getting worse than the last one and the only thing I have to look forward to is not just that that nothing will ever get any better, but that they'll get even worse.

    I have no quality of life and there's nothing I can do about it.

    I can't even get mental health for all this bc I can't wake up for most appointments and can't afford so many missed appointment fees or them getting pissy about missed appointments and dropping me.

    This is bad for my mental health, but do I really need to be crazy or depressed to just want this treated? How am I not supposed to go crazy and get depressed from this?

    Is the best option just suicide? I think I'm going to die from this, but I don't want to draw it out to suffer while it happens. I don't see any other options besides those two.

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